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[12 Sep 2010|10:38am]
well here i am, im sitting alone again, i'm.
staring up at the sky which at this lonely moment is my only friend.
and suddenly, as i gaze upon the night,
well i notice the stars, they began to shake and a dance and a burst,
all a fall into the darkness.
they exploded down, i knew what i had to do.
i ran above to the top of the hill and then i took a hold for you.
it was the sweetest star that fell
and yes, i held on to it close, to the numbness in my heart.
and then i kissed a star, yes i did.
i wrapped it up inside of a golden bow.
and, then i ran away just to find you.
cause this was you gift, oh shit, a star that i kissed.

you are the star that shines, and exlodes with light
and i love and embrace all that i can.
you better take this blindess and stay away from me.
and let me bask inside of your golden sea.
i never knew so simple astronomy, could come to me,
oh, not by ways of the heart
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[08 Aug 2010|01:05pm]
indistinguishable sadness.
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[28 Feb 2010|04:43pm]
can you not look back further than the first page anymore? 
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[23 Aug 2009|07:55pm]
id like to see you when the summer sun sets down
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a fragment of time.. [30 Mar 2009|08:11pm]
spinning spinning spinning.

the universe is at work...
creating new life on my door step( a sunflower has began to grow out of no where - they are my favorite flowers)..
giving me a reason to perservere..
balancing all my edges..
and establishing a perfectly peaceful state of mind.

I went to miami for fashion week. Worked for several days with a designer from Spain, Agatha Ruiz de la Prada, her designs are very interesting( check them if you wish). I loved it. Working in my field, the excitment and hustle-bustle of show time, the pressure to manipulate my skills to my advantage, and the benefits it all creates in the end, after you have truely done a good job.

I am to recieve a personal letter of recommendation, which is sure to help me when looking for an internship/ job in a new city. But, above all I have been offered a promise of work in either New York or SPAIN, working for this designer again. It has been several days since I have been home, and I have told forms of this story many times, but I can't stop gleaming from the impression this opportunity has left on me, and the impression I have seemed to leave on the people I met( the women I worked closely with wrote "you are a brilliant girl, and hard worker. Thank you for your precious time. I could not have done it without you.") Imagine that, imagine me. What a nutty trip.

I suspect this all steers me in the direction of New York. A total surprise after all I've said, but the most obvious place to go. October shall bring many changes, and some hard farewells.
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be here now [17 Mar 2009|03:16pm]
im off to miami very early tomorrow morning to participate as a volunteer for 5 days during Miami Fashion Week.
if it is anything like the fashion show i volunteered at yesterday in sarasota dressing models, im guaranteed to awkwardly witness lots of T&A.
but it should be quite exciting to be a part of.
hopefully at least one of these nights i will be able to have a full night's rest rather than survive off of a series of unsatisfying naps, which i have become almost accustomed to over the last 4 days.
another quarter is over. another one soon to begin. approaching, faster and faster, a future I am still not prepared for.

i feel lonely for more friendships, eager to find my own way in life, and annoyed by ditchy "supposed friends".

oh p.s. ram dass - remember, be here now.......... amazing text. very spiritual, very enlightening. i highly recommend it.
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there's a sikh story.. [10 Mar 2009|09:29pm]
... about a holy man                    who gave two men each a chicken
       and said:
"go kill them where no one can see."
                 one guy went behind the fence and and killed the chicken

the other guy walked around for two days and came back with the chicken

       the holy man said" you didn't kill the chicken?

and the guy said:
         "well, everywhere i go the chicken sees"
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[03 Mar 2009|02:21pm]
...also, the masses of robins that have been gathering in my yard and fellow trees are breathtaking. they come to welcome spring and it brings enormous joy to my heart.
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today [03 Mar 2009|02:10pm]
take a moment to step outside
look up and you shall find
an attractive and graceful day moon
floating peacefully in the sky

..i love a good day moon.
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[27 Feb 2009|12:21pm]
i bought a mood ring.
these things are beautiful and inspiring and all too spiritual to self.
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40 dollar tip [14 Feb 2009|05:01am]
as another day ends, blessed
I lay my spirit down to rest
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teas [09 Feb 2009|05:17pm]
my new found obsession.

green tea: antioxidants, good heatlh, wakefulness.
oolong: very oxidative, light and tastey.
rooibos(red tea from africa): anti-aging protection, spicy and unique.
echinaca: got rid of bretts oncoming cold in one cup. amazing immune support, added stevia for smooth taste.
valerian: added to sleepytime tea to help calm the body and mind for optimum heatlh and relaxation.
YERBA MATE(or just mate, from south america): stimulant with no caffeine, wonderful taste, appetite suppressant, MY FAV RIGHT NOW.
lavender and chamomile and jasmine flowers: delightful tasting teas, very aromatic, wonderfully calming for great peace of mind.
ginseng: stimulant, good for the heart.
KOMBUCHA!!!!: also a favorite, bought at the health food store. it is fermented and tastes a lot like vinegar, a VERY acquired taste. I am very addicted to it.

if you can steep it and it has suspected health benefits i will drink it. 
ive also grown a new found interest in acai fruit for its similar free radical fighting properties. 
heatlh is fun.  

EDIT: tonight i bought yogi brand "gingko IQ" which helps to sustain and regain memory funtion and brain health. it tastes very planty but is quite pleasing. I look forward to it's method of saviour and hope it supplies as promised.
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[04 Feb 2009|11:52am]
the beauty of today and the sureness of the sun stayin bright in the sky gives me the largest zeal. i have no doubts when placed in this remarkably exceptional atmosophere.
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in so many words. [31 Jan 2009|10:25pm]
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SERVICENATION.ORG [21 Jan 2009|01:37pm]





nothing will ever change if we dont work toward it too.

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[21 Jan 2009|02:37am]
ready to be a proud american.
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note to self. [12 Jan 2009|08:31pm]
welcome to being the worst person in the world.
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[11 Jan 2009|02:25am]
coming to terms with the fact thats im quite possibly loosing my mind. but in a good way? i dont know anymore.

edit: definitely NOT in a good way.
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[22 Dec 2008|03:50am]
just caught a baby rat in the kitchen.  set it free in the woods.
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[20 Dec 2008|12:03pm]
I bought a new lavender plant, and also a chamomile. very excited.

yesterday we burried archy.. he lead a long life and Im positive he was happiest near the end. all the treats he could ever want and he didn't even nip our hands anymore. sweet little guy.

i am thinking of getting my dad a "new" recliner couch, found one on craigslist, loveseat for 250 made of microfiber(oooh lush) and I look forward to going to see it. unfortunately it is in largo and i will have to move it, so i guess i will have to rent a moving truck.

in other news, Im pretty sure ive failed my first college class ever. so close to the end this is the worse time to start fucking up. i didnt get my final project done in time, and im sure its atleast 30% of my overall grade. 0. I feel pretty stupid about it. i got an A in my styling class, however, and think I might like to intern as a stylist. the photoshoot came out so well, my brother shot it and i photoshoped, that I think i will hire him to do more for me so i can build a portfolio towards styling. if anyone knows of any beautiful, or quite interesting, models(male or female) in the tampa area let me know! preferrably people that aren't shitty and don't expect money.
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